Song of the day: Whom Shall I Fear (God of Angel Armies) – Chris Tomlin

Just the previous post, I mentioned that I had to answer questions of my passion and strength… I am glad it is over (:

So initially, I was terrified because I really don’t like to share my feelings with others or rather, I was scared of what others (she) might think or react. I anticipated the negative before I allowed myself to surrender the episode. Funny how today’s devotional is on faith that is as small as a mustard seed. Funny how my prayer warriors were more assured that all things will be fine, that I was. Yet before I went in to ‘battle’, I brought myself to ‘bethel’. I told God that He is in charge and that everything is in His control because He has gone before me. That peace I got really transcended all understanding.

I went in and laughed awkwardly but dived into answering the questions. I ended up sharing my testimony of how I eventually got to where I am now, and how I still struggle every day but how God is my pillar of strength. I even told her that I was afraid, in fact I still am, of the passing judgments people may have of me. Yet, to be called holy is really an honor. I thank God that she is Christian, I thank God that as awkward as I think that episode was, the conversation with her is indeed a divine appointment. Well she encouraged me and said that as long as I am certain that the call is from God, then I should not be bothered about what others have to say, just follow what God says. If they are non-believers, its because they don’t know. If they are believers then they can see what faith really is.

I am thankful that it is over with a positive outcome (for now – woman of negative thoughts). “How are you going forward when you get back” – was the question at YMEFLC. That phrasing, tho… Initially I just felt that maybe God wants me to deal with my family. Yet He knows that if there is no push factor, I won’t bring myself to saying these at work… So God, You wanted to deal with these ‘issues’ that I thought were blocks and You conquered them! Wow! I really am a woman of little faith.


3 thoughts on “Victory

  1. Luke 7:36-47 is as follows:

    36 When one of the Pharisees invited Jesus to have dinner with him, he went to the Pharisee’s house and reclined at the table. 37 A woman in that town who lived a sinful life learned that Jesus was eating at the Pharisee’s house, so she came there with an alabaster jar of perfume. 38 As she stood behind him at his feet weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears. Then she wiped them with her hair, kissed them and poured perfume on them.

    39 When the Pharisee who had invited him saw this, he said to himself, ‘If this man were a prophet, he would know who is touching him and what kind of woman she is – that she is a sinner.’

    40 Jesus answered him, ‘Simon, I have something to tell you.’

    ‘Tell me, teacher,’ he said.

    41 ‘Two people owed money to a certain money-lender. One owed him five hundred denarii, and the other fifty. 42 Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he forgave the debts of both. Now which of them will love him more?’

    43 Simon replied, ‘I suppose the one who had the bigger debt forgiven.’

    ‘You have judged correctly,’ Jesus said.

    44 Then he turned towards the woman and said to Simon, ‘Do you see this woman? I came into your house. You did not give me any water for my feet, but she wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. 45 You did not give me a kiss, but this woman, from the time I entered, has not stopped kissing my feet. 46 You did not put oil on my head, but she has poured perfume on my feet. 47 Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven – as her great love has shown. But whoever has been forgiven little loves little.’


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